Not giving a damn

So, I've started this weight loss challenge with myself. And the more I stay committed to it, and get stronger and more fit I get everyday- the more I realize that my wanting to loose weight and get in better shape doesn't have a damn thing to do with the actual weight. Its about shedding all the bullshit that has manifested itself as weight. My past was messed- if u read my blogs you know this already. And the more I went through the more weight I gained. I used it as a sheild, to keep people at bay. I didn't descriminate, idc wheter you had a penis or a vagina- I just wanted people to stay the hell away from me. This weight loss goal is not just about the freakum dress ima buy when I reach my goal. But its about saying FUCK YOU! to everyone that has done me dirty. As my waist line shrinks, so will my enemies. Im tired of living under a damn rock, just because people are assholes. Now please don't take this as a "im fat, and ugly with low self-esteem" type or rant because its not. Im fabulous- fat or not. Thats not the point, the point is that I no longer need this sheild. Im stronger by my damn self to handle ignorant mofos. Mostly men, boyfriend...whatever you wanna call them. This is about knowing my worth as a strong, beautiful, multi-talented black woman. My new attitude is to do me, and leave the dumb shyt behind. Validation is something that I will be providing for my damn-self. So just to give the men of the world some advise- im not like any other chick that you've ever meet, so you can leave your games, your so called magic penis, and mouth peice at the door, cuz it takes more than a few tricks to get a standing ovation from me.
Deuces